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I am finding it really hard to resist going outside and decorating my house for Christmas .我发现真的很难抗拒外出和装饰我家的圣诞节。

I always decorate, and I haven’t been able to venture outside because I have been sick, and here in St. Louis it has been of course cold.我总是装饰，我一直无法合资企业以外，因为我一直生病，在这里，在圣路易斯已经当然冷。 Sunday will probably be the best day to do it, hopefully by then I will be 100 percent better.周日可能会是最好的一天这样做，希望到那时我将百分之百的好。

Still the lights are taunting me, they are sitting on my table next to my computer, and I feel just a little sad every time I see other people’s light glowing at night.不过灯光是嘲笑我，他们坐在我旁边桌上的电脑，我感到一点点悲哀每当我看到其他人的光在夜间发光。 I know I am  a sucker for Christmas.我知道我是一名胭脂鱼的圣诞节。 It is my favorite holiday, my husband doesn’t understand how I can be so excited about it each year.这是我最喜爱的节日，我的丈夫不理解我怎么可以因此感到兴奋每年。 In fact a lot of people humbug me when I speak about how much I enjoy this time of the year.事实上，很多人哄我当我谈论我是多么喜欢每年的这个时候。

I suppose I have my family to thank for my love of Christmas .我猜想我有我的家人感谢我的爱的圣诞节。 Ever since I can remember we all were together on the holidays.自从我还记得我们都是一起的假日。 It brings me back to when I was a kid, baking cookies with my mom, hanging the ornaments on the tree.这使我回当我还是孩子的时候，烘烤饼干与我妈妈，悬挂的饰物上树。 All of us kids going crazy with the tinsel and my grandfather getting upset because we were just gobbing it on, and he wanted it spread out nicely.我们所有的孩子去疯狂的金属丝和我的祖父得到打破，因为我们只是充填上，他希望它传播结果皆大欢喜。 Though we no longer all live under one roof, we all still get together every year .  Our numbers have grown, we are 25 now, 10 of those people being kids under the age of 13.虽然我们不再活一个屋檐下，我们都仍然走到一起，每年 。我们的人数有所增长，我们现在是25个， 10人被孩子未满13岁。

The party moves from house to house now, but it is always the same. Tons of cookies , great food to eat, lots of love, watching the kids open their presents.党从挨家挨户现在，但它始终是相同的。 吨饼干，伟大的食物，大量的爱情，看着孩子们打开他们的礼物。 Christmas music, everyone dressed for the holiday.圣诞音乐，每个人都打扮的节日。 Something about the whole thing just warms me so much inside and out.一些对整个事情只是暖箱这么多内外。

Actually and I have to be honest, something about just being around my family makes me so calm, happy, and collected.其实，我必须坦率地说，一些刚刚在我的家庭让我如此平静，幸福，并收集了。 My life hasn’t been without them ever, I hardly ever go a month without seeing one member of my family or more.  I think because we all lived together when I was a kid, I learned to lean on, count on, and need my families company.我的生活没有得到任何时候都没有他们，我几乎每个月去没有看到一名成员，我的家庭或更多。我想是因为我们都生活在一起时，我是一个孩子，我学会了依靠，指望，需要我的家庭公司。 When you grow up in a house with your two Aunts, Four Cousins, and grandparents life is interesting, never dull , and you always have someone to play with.当你长大了一套住宅，你的两位姐，四表兄弟，和祖父母生活很有意思， 从来没有枯燥 ，你总是有人玩。

So presents, lights, Christmas trees, music, snow, all of that wouldn’t mean much to me without my family. Christmas means family to me .  All of my loved ones in the same house, sharing our evening with each other, you couldn’t find me a better Christmas.因此提出，灯光，圣诞树，音乐，雪，所有这一切并不意味着很多，我没有我的家人。 圣诞节意味着家庭给我。所有的我的亲人在同一所房屋，分享我们的晚上对方，你找不到我一个更好的圣诞节。

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A little over a month ago it seems life just started to have a downward spiral , most things that could go wrong, have gone wrong.略高于一个月前的生活似乎才刚刚开始有一个螺旋式下降 ，大多数的事情，可能出差错，已经错了。

My husband got fired, that I think was the first thing that started it all off.  I am an emotional person, I can’t help it, some times it serves me well, and some times it hinders me. 我的丈夫被解雇，这是我想的第一件事开始的这一切了。我是一个情绪化的人，我不能帮助它，有时它我很好，有时它妨碍了我。 I think right after he told me I just cried, I couldn’t help it.我想后，他告诉我，我只是哭，我不能帮助它。 I knew my tears weren’t helping anyone especially not him.我知道我的眼泪并没有帮助任何人尤其是不是他。 I was in a state of shock though, I guess I under estimated his company, I thought they had a heart.我是在一个处于休克状态不过，我想我根据估计，他的公司，我还以为他们有心脏病。

After he got fired, we realized we wouldn’t have the money to cover ourselves with insurance , over 900 a month for the three of us on Cobra, hah not with my $485 dollar a month house payment.  My husband found some work, not what he had, and it doesn’t cover us insurance wise, but we are staying afloat.后，他被解雇，我们意识到我们将没有足够的经费，以支付自己的保险，超过900个为我们三个人的眼镜蛇，嘿不是我的485美元美元的房子每月付款。我的丈夫发现了一些工作，而不是他什么，而且不包括我们保险明智的，但我们住预料之中。

Of course I am super healthy all this time until he gets fired.当然，我超健康的这一切时间，直到他能发射。 Shortly after they let him go, I get what I think is a cold.之后不久，他们让他去，我得到了我认为是感冒。 Except my throat is in real bad pain, and I don’t really have cold symptoms.除了我的喉咙是真正的利空疼痛，我真的不有冷的症状。 Turns out it is strep.原来这是链球菌。 Going to the emergency clinic cost me over 3 hundred dollars just to see the doctor, get the doctors opinion, and then get the test for strep.去医院急诊费用箱超过3 100美元，只是为了看看医生，让医生的意见，然后让测试链。 Test comes back positive, I get antibiotics, and sent home.回来试验阳性，我得到的抗生素，并遣送回国。 Thank you Schnucks for your free antibiotics, and cheap prescriptions.谢谢你Schnucks为您免费抗生素，和廉价的处方。

I get better and almost a month fully passes before the next problem hits me.我要更好的和近一个月之前，充分通行证下一问题点击我。 My son is going to school now, and he is bringing me home all kinds of treats.我的儿子去上学了，他是把我家里的各种待遇。 I get a cold, a nasty one, and after three or four days of cold, my ears start to hurt.我收到了冷战，一个讨厌的人，经过3或4天的寒冷，我的耳朵开始受伤。 I knew immediately what was happening, but one I couldn’t believe it and two, BOTH EARS!我知道立即发生了什么事，但我真的不敢相信，两个，双耳！ I couldn’t believe it.我简直不敢相信。

Here I am trying to stay positive and hoping that it was just an ear ache and would go away, but by the second day when I started having hearing issues I knew I couldn’t ignore this one.在这里我想保持积极和希望，它只是一个耳朵疼，将走，但第二天当我开始有听力问题，我知道我不能忽视这一点。 So I went to the Walgreens clinic this time, $59 dollars for the visit, not to bad, she quickly tells me I have an infection in both ears, gives me more antibiotics and sends me home.所以，我去Walgreens诊所这个时候，美元59美元的访问，而不是不好，她很快告诉我，我有一个感染的两个耳朵，给了我更多的抗生素和发送我回家。

I figure not much can top this off, I am a little freaked out that it is hard to hear, and I had a little breakdown episode , emotional I know.  Then on Tuesday I had a no good horrible day.我想没有什么可以顶端此后，我有点吓了一跳，这是很难听到的，我已经有点崩溃事件 ，情感我知道。然后周二我有没有好可怕的一天。 My day started off by getting up at 6 am to get my son to school.我的一天开始时的起床上午6时让我的儿子上学。 Everything was going pretty well, until my dog got out.一切都将相当不错，直到我的狗失控。 She is a runner, little crazy poodle that when she gets out won’t come to you, or anyone and somehow manages to slip by you every-time you try to grab her.她是一个亚军，几乎疯狂的狮子狗，当她失去不会来找你，或任何人，并以某种方式管理你滑每一次你试图抓住她。 I manage to get her back in the house.我管理得到她的房子。 I turn around to finish getting my son ready, and she pushes open the screen door and runs out again.我想谈谈在完成得到我的儿子准备的，她把屏幕打开门，再次运行。 Freakin wonderful, the chase is back on. Freakin精彩的追逐又回到。 Mind u I am sick still so being out in the cold chasing her isn’t doing anything for me.心灵ü我生病还是被在冷战追逐她没有做任何事情对我来说。

I finally get her back in, and realize his bus isn’t coming.最后，我让她回来，并实现他的车没有到来。 I figure this is because I am late on the bus payment. I get my husband up, we take Jr. down to school where they inform me that their power is out, no school today!我想这是因为我后期上车付款。我的丈夫，我们采取小到学校，他们告诉我，他们的权力是的，今天没有学校！ I am thinking his school has not heard of phones or maybe they could have called.我想到他的学校还没有听到手机或他们也许会要求。 The rest of the day goes pretty much normal until about two hours after dinner.其余的每天都会非常正常，直到大约两小时后吃晚饭。 My stomach starts to hurt, like holy hell, mother of mercy type of cramps.我的胃开始伤害，像神圣的地狱，母亲摆布类型的痉挛。 I am dying, what is wrong with me.我要死啦，什么是错了我。 Then my husband says, I am 95 percent sure the pork we had for dinner was fully cooked.然后我的丈夫说，我百分之九十五的猪肉肯定我们的晚餐是完全煮熟后食用。 So after about an hour in the bathroom, I feel much better, but of course I don’t let my husband off easily, he poisoned me, he tried to off me with pork .因此，经过大约一个小时在浴室里，我感觉好多了，但我当然不会让我的丈夫很容易了，他毒死我， 他想了我的猪肉。

As if all of this isn’t bad enough, some no good, low life person stole my candy canes .至于如果这一切不是够糟糕的，有些没有好，寿命低的人偷走了我的糖果 。

Christmas is pretty much my favorite time of the year.圣诞节是非常我最喜欢的时间一年。 While most adults around me are yelling humbug I am singing Christmas carols.虽然大多数成年人是我周围的喊叫哄我唱圣诞颂歌。 I was starting to put up christmas decorations when I got sick, I still haven’t finished.我开始提升自己圣诞装饰品当我生病了，我还没有完成。 I had these cute little candy canes that went down my walk way.我这些可爱的小糖果说了我的步行方式。 They weren’t the lighted ones, I was planning on placing lights in the grass beneath them.他们没有灯光的，我是把规划的灯光在基层下面他们。 I had a total of 8 and now I have a total of 4, and one broken one.我有一个共8 ，现在我一共有4个，其中损坏。 Don’t ask me why they only took 3, broke one and then left the others.不要问我为什么他们只用了3 ，打破一个，然后离开了其他人。 I figure I have some local candy cane addicts around, and maybe they got disappointed when they realized they were just plastic, but didn’t have the heart to put the others back.I am hoping things will start to look up, and that in a week this will all just be a memory.我想我有一些地方糖果手杖吸毒者周围，也许他们失望了当他们意识到他们只是塑料，但没有心脏，使他人back.I 10:00希望事情将开始寻找，并在这一个星期都将只是一个记忆。 After all it is my favorite time of the year, and cookie baking is just around the corner!!!!!毕竟这是我最喜欢的时间一年，饼干烘烤是指日可待!!!!! I can’t wait to dive into that.  My downward spiral will go away, at least through it all I can laugh , even when I am crying.我不能等待潜到这一点。我国螺旋式下降将持续下去，至少通过这一切我可以笑，甚至当我哭泣。